12th
Dolla’, dolla’ billz, ya’ll.
I’ve had a bout of insomnia the past few nights, which I’m not too big a fan of, but it allows me to get some thinking in. I have realized that I actually like living by the dollar bill. Recently, I had some money troubles, and now I have very little of it for my spending pleasure (definitely not the first time something like this as happened). Well, I’ve noticed that if you have money to spend freely, everything is just too easy. Too smooth flowing and non-chalant. On the other hand, if you have little of it, you are provided with a challenge. It requires you to think things out more, present and future tense. You do away with everything you don’t necessarily need, that you thought you did, and concentrate a lot more on what the necessities really are. It is up to you to choose what to and what not to sacrifice. It’s a challenge that I have found myself to like quite a bit whenever it happens to fall into my lap. It’s invigorating. It opens the mind and provokes you to think in a more creative fashion. You begin to think outside of the box, coming up with alternate paths as you go along. Interestingly enough, it makes me feel good. And as I grow older, I am beginning to realize all of the different ways life challenges us that we just take as bad luck. For another instance, a friend just pointed out to me that I wait until the last minute to do everything, which is mostly true. He said that he does that too, but because it is more of a challenge that way; to get a lot done in a shorter amount of time. I suppose I never thought of it like that before; like a challenge. I’ve always thought that maybe I’m just subconsciously fucking myself over? But really. Maybe it’s just a different way to challenge myself, and push everything to the limit, or beyond. Hmm. Interesting.
